What Now?

Warning! Not my usual upbeat post!

I am lost! 🙁

The girl that always has a plan. A goal. A list. A list of goals.

And it makes me so sad. I love new beginnings and a fresh start, organization and planning, but right now I am…just lost.

I know I talked yesterday about motivation and inspiration, but after a whole day of reflecting and thinking, I couldn’t come up with anything. I don’t know if it has anything to do with there is so much I want to accomplish and not sure how to fit it all in or if I am suffering from the doldrums.

I feel as if time is running out. I am not that old and many people older than I are getting much more accomplished, but I feel that I am always taking three steps backwards to one step forward.

The even sadder thing is that all my life I have been such an upbeat, polyanna type person and I feel I have lost even that.

I can pinpoint the beginning of it – when we discovered my husband had cancer and, although, he is now on his way to being cancer-free, so many negative things followed that rocked my world off balance at that point and I haven’t been able to fix it.

I am not where I want to be in my life and not sure how to get back on track.

Sorry this is such a downer post. I figured if I put it in writing then maybe I can exorcise that demon and get back on track. Maybe I should pay attention to the Quote of the Day, LOL!

~Sandy

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7 Responses to “What Now?”

Dennie Says:

I guess that magic spell I cast really DID work :sealed: – I didn’t mean for it to zap ALL your Pollyanna 🙂 – but . . . sheesh – I am sorry 😳

January 3rd, 2006 at 10:41 am

Sandy Says:

Hey, no problem! It’s just there has been so many changes in my life in the last year and a half and I don’t quite know how to change with the change. Doesn’t make sense does it? :eyes:

January 3rd, 2006 at 10:55 am

Sandy Says:

Trust me in the cosmic universe you are where you are suppose to be right now. The problem always comes from not knowing why we’re there. Have no fear it will come to you but in the meantime, instead of asking why this and why that, ask what is in my control today that I can do. Often we get in the dull drums because we feel powerless but we are never as powerless as we choose to be. 😉

January 3rd, 2006 at 10:56 am

Devon Ellington Says:

We all have days where we need to reassess, and sometimes we’re not happy with where we are in the moment. It’s very tough — believe me, I’m going through a life-shattering crisis right now, and it won’t let up any time soon.

Be kind to yourself, decide what your priorities are, take the time to think about them and decide how you want to tackle them.

Sometimes, you’re going to have bad days. Even the happiest, most optimistic folks have days with sorrow, pain, self-dobut, melancholy and exhaustion. There’s nothing wrong with that. It’s part of being human.

You have a lot of people who love you and want to help you.

January 4th, 2006 at 8:47 am

Mik Says:

Hang in there, hon. Take some time to think about where you want to be and how to get there. Nothing has to be decided right now, even thought I KNOW you feel like you have to. Believe me – I know. I feel like I’m running out of time every day of my life. You are smart and beautiful and talented (YES, I said talented) and a wonderful friend. Do NOT let anything or anyone get in the way of your dream. You CAN do it. If you need me, call. Anytime. {{HUGS}}

January 4th, 2006 at 9:23 am

Sandy Says:

Thank you, guys! I will take each and every suggestion to heart. You guys are the best!

Devon: I am so sorry about your crisis! Hang in there!

January 4th, 2006 at 8:17 pm

Cream Ice Says:

Good observation, your ideas are right on.

October 9th, 2006 at 8:15 am

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